Blog, Mental Health, Self Discovery

The Ultimate Imposter

The Ultimate Imposter.  In my head, it’s a fact that I’m not as good as other people. I’ve spent years honing my inner ‘rating’ scale, comparing myself to everyone I meet, noting all the ways that they’re better than me. At uni, I know that I’m nowhere near as good as the other people studying… Read More The Ultimate Imposter

Blog, Self Discovery

Haircuts and freedom

Haircuts and freedom. I gave myself a lockdown haircut the other day. I’ve not been to a hairdresser for a few years now and have instead let my curls grow, embracing the wildness instead of straightening them into submission. I feel like I’ve come home, and now I really love my crazy hair, even though… Read More Haircuts and freedom

Blog, Mental Health, Self Discovery

New Routines

New Routines. I took a week off last week, unplanned until Sunday evening. I’d spent an entire day in a funk, folded into a sofa crease, clocking up the hours on social media. I spent maybe 8, 9 hours online, getting more and more miserable and angry at myself, yet unable to stop. I need… Read More New Routines

Blog, Self Discovery

Thinking or doing?

Thinking or doing?  I think a lot. About so many different things – the obvious ones, like my research, and the less obvious ones, like whether I replied to that message 6 years ago with the right tone of voice, or just exactly how uncomfortable I will feel wearing whatever I’ve decided to wear in… Read More Thinking or doing?

Blog, Self Discovery

Fleeting reaction vs deep time emotion

Fleeting reaction versus deep time emotion.  I’ve noticed something weird over the past few years. As I grow older and settle into myself, finally, I still find myself comparing others’ success to my own, even though underneath I know that really it doesn’t matter. It’s hard to really explain what I mean, but I’m going… Read More Fleeting reaction vs deep time emotion

Blog, Self Discovery

Choice

Choice. Last night I was miserable, moaning. In a dark mood, feeling an anger inside that ground me down. I sat on the settee and harrumphed, feeling ever-so-sorry for myself. I hate feeling like this, I told myself for the thousandth time. If only… …and then it hit me. I really, really dislike this person… Read More Choice

Blog, Self Discovery

Finding my Place

Finding my place. I never really slotted in, truly. I wasn’t a cool kid. I wasn’t overly popular, I wasn’t stand-out good at anything. I had lovely friends but always felt a little outside. On the inside. I never really had anything to define me, save the odd obligatory teenage boyband obsession and my crazy… Read More Finding my Place

Blog, Minimalism

Mellow Minimalism

Mellow Minimalism – Reflections   My last big ‘minimalism’ push was a few years ago now, when I spent a couple of years buying nothing. Since then I haven’t really posted that much about minimalism. I wanted to write a little about what I’ve been doing in that time, the effect it had on my life,… Read More Mellow Minimalism

Blog, Mental Health, Self Discovery

Ten Years On

It’s the day before New Year’s eve and it’s the end of a decade. I feel like I’ve missed something, missed out on years of time flashing past me before I noticed. I feel as though the years between 26 and 36 have been a blur. So much has happened, yet here I still am.… Read More Ten Years On

Blog, Mental Health, Self Discovery

Lightning

Did you ever get a lightning bolt realisation from reading something small and simple? A little innocuous sentence, but suddenly, a situation becomes clear, all at once? It happened to me this week. Reading the latest Permaculture magazine, Simon Lacey’s article on horticultural therapy really interested me, especially the incorporation of Permaculture principles into therapeutic… Read More Lightning