Blog, Mental Health, Self Discovery, Simplicity

Stepping Out.

Stepping Out. I think I’ve reached a point where I want out of this divided society. Remember the days where people had different opinions, but that was okay? The days before hacked elections and feed algorithms. The days where people would have an opinion, and maybe not agree with someone else – but that was… Read More Stepping Out.

Blog, Mental Health, Self Discovery

The Ultimate Imposter

The Ultimate Imposter.  In my head, it’s a fact that I’m not as good as other people. I’ve spent years honing my inner ‘rating’ scale, comparing myself to everyone I meet, noting all the ways that they’re better than me. At uni, I know that I’m nowhere near as good as the other people studying… Read More The Ultimate Imposter

Blog, Mental Health, Self Discovery

New Routines

New Routines. I took a week off last week, unplanned until Sunday evening. I’d spent an entire day in a funk, folded into a sofa crease, clocking up the hours on social media. I spent maybe 8, 9 hours online, getting more and more miserable and angry at myself, yet unable to stop. I need… Read More New Routines

Blog, Mental Health

Normality in unusual times

Normality in unusual times.  What is normal, any more? 4 months has passed by with at least some form of lockdown measure (increased again this week where I live). Amidst zoom calls, masks and endless amounts of hand sanitiser, a new normal seems to be settling into everyday life here in the UK. I find… Read More Normality in unusual times

Blog, Mental Health

Losing Concentration

Losing Concentration.  I can’t concentrate. On anything. Even my ability to throw myself wholeheartedly into ‘anything that isn’t the thing I’m supposed to be doing’ has disappeared. I’m even procrastinating procrastination, which was one of my most developed skills. I can’t give my attention to anything any more. I’m sure a lot of this is… Read More Losing Concentration

Blog, Mental Health

Ups and Downs

Ups and downs.  Where do I start with the last few months? Where do any of us start? I’ve re-written this paragraph about 6 times now. It’s still hard to put this whole lockdown thing into words. The pandemic is still lurking around, at odds with the general feeling of ‘back to normality’ that is filtering through… Read More Ups and Downs

Blog, Mental Health

Lockdown Intertia

Lockdown Intertia. When the UK government told us we needed to stay at home back in March, I decided lockdown would be a great opportunity to start to regain my lost fitness. All that spare time stretched out in front of me, tantalising, waiting to be filled with good intentions and beneficial activities. In a… Read More Lockdown Intertia

Blog, Mental Health, Words

Together, apart

Together, apart.  After the memes. After the shouting, the knee-jerk buying, the panic, the refusal to accept. After the swarming of national parks. After the threats, the beating heart of community, the pleas on deaf ears. After the news, the updates, the endless, endless statistics. After it all. A slow acceptance of the trembling fear… Read More Together, apart

Blog, Mental Health, Self Discovery

Ten Years On

It’s the day before New Year’s eve and it’s the end of a decade. I feel like I’ve missed something, missed out on years of time flashing past me before I noticed. I feel as though the years between 26 and 36 have been a blur. So much has happened, yet here I still am.… Read More Ten Years On

Blog, Mental Health, Outdoors

“Go for a walk”

I know I said this post would be my last about my experiences with mental health – but I had some thoughts I wanted to share! Over recent months, discussion of the mental health crisis has become increasingly visible in the media. Mental ill health is the largest single-source of burden of disease in the… Read More “Go for a walk”