Blog, Mental Health, Minimalism

Anti-Productivity

Anti-Productivity. I was watching a YouTube video on morning routines yesterday. The general gist of it was that anyone who actually pressed snooze on their alarm clock is a heathen, and if we hadn’t crammed most of a work day into the hours before breakfast time then, well, what’s even the point of existing. The… Read More Anti-Productivity

Blog, Mental Health

Rollercoaster

Rollercoaster. Wow, I’ve been up and down with posting recently, publishing and deleting posts, getting into a funk about blogging (and life) and just generally being a mess. The last month my mind has been racing, overthinking, putting too much importance on things that just don’t matter. My dreams have been crazy, the same dreams… Read More Rollercoaster

Blog, Mental Health, Outdoors, Simplicity

Observe

Observe. A teeny, tiny crocus has reared its head in the garden under the birch tree. Poking through the snow, adjacent to a singular snowdrop, the bright yellow bud looks almost fluorescent in the palate of ice whites, muted greys and browns that accompany bad weather here in the UK. It’s as if my eyes… Read More Observe

Blog, Living, Mental Health, Self Discovery

Float

Float.  The fog in the valley is whiter than usual. Thick, still, eerie, yes – but bright, wrapping me in a cocoon of something that’s not-quite-light. Bulbs are pushing strongly through the ground, peeping above the snow that lies still frozen. Blue tits are popping in and out of the bird box. Fox and squirrel… Read More Float

Blog, Mental Health, Self Discovery, Simplicity

Stepping Out.

Stepping Out. I think I’ve reached a point where I want out of this divided society. Remember the days where people had different opinions, but that was okay? The days before hacked elections and feed algorithms. The days where people would have an opinion, and maybe not agree with someone else – but that was… Read More Stepping Out.

Blog, Mental Health, Self Discovery

The Ultimate Imposter

The Ultimate Imposter.  In my head, it’s a fact that I’m not as good as other people. I’ve spent years honing my inner ‘rating’ scale, comparing myself to everyone I meet, noting all the ways that they’re better than me. At uni, I know that I’m nowhere near as good as the other people studying… Read More The Ultimate Imposter

Blog, Mental Health, Self Discovery

New Routines

New Routines. I took a week off last week, unplanned until Sunday evening. I’d spent an entire day in a funk, folded into a sofa crease, clocking up the hours on social media. I spent maybe 8, 9 hours online, getting more and more miserable and angry at myself, yet unable to stop. I need… Read More New Routines

Blog, Mental Health

Normality in unusual times

Normality in unusual times.  What is normal, any more? 4 months has passed by with at least some form of lockdown measure (increased again this week where I live). Amidst zoom calls, masks and endless amounts of hand sanitiser, a new normal seems to be settling into everyday life here in the UK. I find… Read More Normality in unusual times

Blog, Mental Health

Losing Concentration

Losing Concentration.  I can’t concentrate. On anything. Even my ability to throw myself wholeheartedly into ‘anything that isn’t the thing I’m supposed to be doing’ has disappeared. I’m even procrastinating procrastination, which was one of my most developed skills. I can’t give my attention to anything any more. I’m sure a lot of this is… Read More Losing Concentration

Blog, Mental Health

Ups and Downs

Ups and downs.  Where do I start with the last few months? Where do any of us start? I’ve re-written this paragraph about 6 times now. It’s still hard to put this whole lockdown thing into words. The pandemic is still lurking around, at odds with the general feeling of ‘back to normality’ that is filtering through… Read More Ups and Downs