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Morning Brew 29/7/2020

Morning Brew 29/7/2020.  I haven’t written a morning brew chat for 6 months! I could have sworn it was just a few weeks ago. Time is loopy these days. Well, here I am, and I have tea and Weetabix. Hello. The rain has finally stopped in this, the most autumnal July we’ve had for a… Read More Morning Brew 29/7/2020

Blog, Self Discovery

Fatigue and Memory

Fatigue and Memory.  CFS/ME is  weird condition to have. A list of symptoms as long as my arm (and then some) goes without saying, but the one I find to be particularly disturbing is my lack of memory. I can remember most things. Information for uni. Things I did in the past. Many embarrassing incidents… Read More Fatigue and Memory

Blog, Words

Silence

Silence.  There’s something about a silent house. That space, in between the tick, tick, tick of a clock, when the fridge stops humming, when the heating is off for the summer. A silence lying thick in stone walls, air still and heavy. Time feels stretched. I am an interloper, a shadow, a thought. Waiting, as… Read More Silence

Blog, Self Discovery

Choice

Choice. Last night I was miserable, moaning. In a dark mood, feeling an anger inside that ground me down. I sat on the settee and harrumphed, feeling ever-so-sorry for myself. I hate feeling like this, I told myself for the thousandth time. If only… …and then it hit me. I really, really dislike this person… Read More Choice

Blog, Mental Health

Ups and Downs

Ups and downs.  Where do I start with the last few months? Where do any of us start? I’ve re-written this paragraph about 6 times now. It’s still hard to put this whole lockdown thing into words. The pandemic is still lurking around, at odds with the general feeling of ‘back to normality’ that is filtering through… Read More Ups and Downs

Blog, Simplicity, Words

Away from the News

Away from the News.  Away from the news, a soft breeze brings a hint of coolness through green leaves. Waves lap up a pebbled shore, constant, rhythmical. A ray of sunlight falls on morning dew. Away from the news, laughter echoes from gardens as people gather in friendship. Young birds learn to fly, and feed,… Read More Away from the News

Blog, Self Discovery

Finding my Place

Finding my place. I never really slotted in, truly. I wasn’t a cool kid. I wasn’t overly popular, I wasn’t stand-out good at anything. I had lovely friends but always felt a little outside. On the inside. I never really had anything to define me, save the odd obligatory teenage boyband obsession and my crazy… Read More Finding my Place

Blog, Outdoors, Simplicity

My small patch of earth

My small patch of earth. The world is a weird place at the moment. I feel small, and although not hiding away, just like I want to take a step out of it all. I want to fade into the background, and watch, and wait. I pace the length of the garden, with tea and… Read More My small patch of earth

Blog, Mental Health

Lockdown Intertia

Lockdown Intertia. When the UK government told us we needed to stay at home back in March, I decided lockdown would be a great opportunity to start to regain my lost fitness. All that spare time stretched out in front of me, tantalising, waiting to be filled with good intentions and beneficial activities. In a… Read More Lockdown Intertia

Blog, Self Discovery, Simplicity

Thoughts on social media

Thoughts on social media.  I watched illustrator Julia Bausenhardt’s video on giving up social media the other day, and it really struck a chord with me. I’ve tried hard to quit social media before, countless times (if you’re a long time reader of the blog you might know!), always lasting just a few weeks before… Read More Thoughts on social media