Shops, coffee and almost spring
With great fanfare, the shops re-opened again here in England last week, along with pubs and cafes – those that have outside space, at least. I must admit I’ve enjoyed a quiet pint and a waterside coffee, and that was enough for me, for now. I feel like the more things that open up, the more I want to stay home. I’m happy for those who can return to jobs, for those businesses that made it through lockdown so far being able to reopen. But I must admit to a tinge of regret that there was no big realisation, after all living for a year with less, that we could maybe take this, as a society, and look to the future.
I remember in first lockdown that among the terror and heartache, there was a little glimmer of hope that humanity needed to slow, to catch a breath. We needed to sit in our gardens and listen to birdsong. We couldn’t go shopping and seemed to get by without relying on it as a pastime. I dared to dream that this might translate into something bigger. But as the months slipped by, the government focus became ‘back to normal’, ‘business as usual’. Of course it did. I’m not sure why I hoped things would change.
So, a week of mixed emotions. I’m a little overwhelmed with life – everything just seems so big at the moment. I had a plan to overhaul the driveway this year – it’s spent the last 10 years being taken over by couch grass, (as has the entire garden really) but every time I look at it it’s just too much to do. I always end up just walking away, not knowing where to start. It’s the same with a lot of other things – I can’t seem to begin!
It’s been sunny at least, although a little chillier than I’d like – it feels like spring is almost here but the associated warmth is still lurking elsewhere… But flowers are blooming, the tadpoles have hatched, bats are out and about at dusk, and I saw the first butterfly of the season 2 days ago (a Peacock, if you’re interested!). I enthusiastically planted up some bedding plants only for the weather forecast to change to overnight frosts again, so have been spending evenings pottering in and out of the greenhouse taking them all back in again overnight. At least they’re out in the day for the bees! Huge, fuzzy bumblebees are buzzing all around. I never realise how much I miss their background buzzing over the winter until it starts up again!
Well I’ll leave it there for today. Hopefully it will warm up soon enough and spring will properly arrive!