Deep breaths and self-belief.
With the melting of the snow comes a spark of life. As ice recedes and the hardened ground begins to thaw, I too sense a shift after the stillness of past weeks. It’s like the little ideas I planted back in October are beginning to grow along with the bulbs and buds. I wondered how to balance, and how to believe in myself. I wondered how to create something sustainable from this blog. I wondered how to give more of myself to it.
It takes a lot for me to raise my head, square my shoulders, and say I can do this. It takes a suspension of the years of not-good-enough to grab an idea and think, this might be the way forward. My dream is to carry on this little blog and make it something more – but staying true to what it is. I don’t want to sell stuff. I did some ‘gifted’ posts, but it just didn’t feel right. I don’t want to have ads. I’m not on social media. And so I thought they way forward might be Patreon.
I don’t have an income, at all. It’s hard to find meaning and self-worth when utterly reliant on someone else for anything financial. I don’t need much, but I need to create something, of my own, that is worth something to other people, too. So I built an extension of the blog, where you can choose to support it further, if you so wish. It’ll be separate from here – a decade of working in retail has left me averse of trying to sell or promote anything, especially myself. So now and then I may mention what’s happening, and there’ll be a link in the sidebar, and you can visit, or not. Argh, I hate even typing this. But I hope it’ll be a lovely place to come and hang out and talk and take some time for yourself.
It’ll be little things, following my slow life – a bit of gardening, coming on a walk, pottering around, making terrible crafts and attempting to bake. Some reading, some animals, lots of nature. New posts and videos and photos of the daft cat. Just a space to take some time out of the day and potter along with each other.
Anyway, it’ll be up to visit in a few weeks, once I’ve figured it out and stressed out and doubted myself and probably cried and then just pressed publish. It would be lovely to have you along, if you want some extra One Empty Shelf things.