I’d like to say thank you for the thoughtful, heartfelt comments on Caring Enough. To hear that other people feel like this as well helped enormously. I needed to hear the things that people enjoy doing, to see that despite this feeling, it’s possible to begin to get involved in life once more. And, of course, to just be and try to let go of that self judgement. That feeling of ‘I should be better by now’. I wanted to just articulate this feeling, explore it, poke it and prod at it a little. It’s kind of hard to find the right words, though.
It’s just a greyness, where interest once sparked. A… longing, almost…. a heart-pull when I think of things I used to do, a despair that I just can’t get that feeling back right now.
I am having some trouble remembering who I am, I think. Losing self to mental illness isn’t that fun, and coming out the other side still isn’t fun – there’s a lot of trying to remember who that person was before the dementors got a hold of them.
So, in the interests of moving forward, I’ve made a little list of the things I stand for, or would like to stand for in the future. Things change, people change, and I’m not sure that I’d still enjoy the things I used to do, but I’ll list them anyway, with no pressure or expectation, just with curiosity, and a little gentleness.
I am Sal, and I am for:
Acceptance
Trees
Big thoughts
Compliments
Beaches
Thunderstorms
Learning
Fitness
The environment
Discussion
Walking
Equality
Friends
Simplicity
Animals
Oceans
Running
History
Writing
Questioning
Art
Music
What would you be ‘for’?
I so love this post. I see we have a lot in common.
I stand for…
Simplicity
Music
Local business
Sun
Environment
Fresh air
Rest
Family
Reading
The coast – water
Solidarity
Fresh vegetables
Digging in the dirt
Strumming the guitar
Live music
Art
Creativity
Urban life
Equality
Diversity
Stories
Authenticity
I am for:
Loving-kindness
Music
Parks and forests
Simple living
Ripe tomatoes
Diversity
Books, books, and more books
Naps
Chocolate
Impressionists
Cuddling
Equality
Breakfast anytime
Community
Frugality
Iced tea
Respect
Deep conversation
Education
Shaker furniture
Meditation
Fresh herbs
Sunshine
Moonglow
The sound of waves breaking
Peanut butter
Long walks
Annie, this is a wonderful list 🙂 Moonglow speaks to my heart x
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