2018 was a huge, crashing, explosion of a year. When I look back, the overwhelming feeling is that I’m so glad it’s over – one or two huge things sticking out, obscuring anything else from view. We’re well into 2019 now and I’ve spent a few days mulling over the last year in my head.
It’s so easy to let my attention be caught by the major events – the ones I tend to see as ‘bad’. Having 6 months off work ill, culminating in having to leave my job. Months of extensions and extenuating circumstances to try and battle my way though the last months of university. Therapy, meds, and being so tired I couldn’t stand up. 12 months of cancelled plans and dramatic re-planning of life trajectories.
But 2018 wasn’t an entire write off. Some of the best things have come out of it, things I’m proud of, things I’m happy for. So far, I’m having a great start to the new year – thanks to the ground work that finally clicked into place at the end of last year. And so, I’d like to wallow in a small cloud of smugness. Here’s a little list of things I’m proud I did in 2018:
-Asking for help
-Making new friends
-Growing lots of veg
-Having the strength to quit my job
-Passing my Master’s degree! Finally!
-Doing social things
-Finishing therapy (all of it!)
-Lots of camping
-Stopping running on empty
-Playing lots of instruments
-Wearing a swimming costume and not giving a single shit
-Starting to make jewellery/draw/woodburn/etc and making time to be creative
-Coming off headmeds
-Giving myself a break
Just little things but big for me!
What things are you proud of from last year? Is there anything you want to do more of in 2019?