Hello, October A little October update 🙂 Well, suddenly it’s October. Another new month in this slightly dystopian world, and the sun is shining, the builders in the house in front are having a loud discussion about eggy bread, and autumn is in the air. So it’s not so bad, all things considered. If you… Read More Hello, October
Stepping Out. I think I’ve reached a point where I want out of this divided society. Remember the days where people had different opinions, but that was okay? The days before hacked elections and feed algorithms. The days where people would have an opinion, and maybe not agree with someone else – but that was… Read More Stepping Out.
3 Books 3 Points: September 2020 September is here and I’ve got some more book reviews for you! I spent a wonderful month reading lots of lovely things throughout August. You can keep up with what I’m currently reading on my Goodreads! I managed to pop into the uni library to borrow my first read… Read More 3 Books 3 Points: September 2020
The Ultimate Imposter. In my head, it’s a fact that I’m not as good as other people. I’ve spent years honing my inner ‘rating’ scale, comparing myself to everyone I meet, noting all the ways that they’re better than me. At uni, I know that I’m nowhere near as good as the other people studying… Read More The Ultimate Imposter
Haircuts and freedom. I gave myself a lockdown haircut the other day. I’ve not been to a hairdresser for a few years now and have instead let my curls grow, embracing the wildness instead of straightening them into submission. I feel like I’ve come home, and now I really love my crazy hair, even though… Read More Haircuts and freedom
New Routines. I took a week off last week, unplanned until Sunday evening. I’d spent an entire day in a funk, folded into a sofa crease, clocking up the hours on social media. I spent maybe 8, 9 hours online, getting more and more miserable and angry at myself, yet unable to stop. I need… Read More New Routines
Thinking or doing? I think a lot. About so many different things – the obvious ones, like my research, and the less obvious ones, like whether I replied to that message 6 years ago with the right tone of voice, or just exactly how uncomfortable I will feel wearing whatever I’ve decided to wear in… Read More Thinking or doing?
Normality in unusual times. What is normal, any more? 4 months has passed by with at least some form of lockdown measure (increased again this week where I live). Amidst zoom calls, masks and endless amounts of hand sanitiser, a new normal seems to be settling into everyday life here in the UK. I find… Read More Normality in unusual times
Losing Concentration. I can’t concentrate. On anything. Even my ability to throw myself wholeheartedly into ‘anything that isn’t the thing I’m supposed to be doing’ has disappeared. I’m even procrastinating procrastination, which was one of my most developed skills. I can’t give my attention to anything any more. I’m sure a lot of this is… Read More Losing Concentration
Fleeting reaction versus deep time emotion. I’ve noticed something weird over the past few years. As I grow older and settle into myself, finally, I still find myself comparing others’ success to my own, even though underneath I know that really it doesn’t matter. It’s hard to really explain what I mean, but I’m going… Read More Fleeting reaction vs deep time emotion