Blog, Mental Health, Outdoors

“Go for a walk”

I know I said this post would be my last about my experiences with mental health – but I had some thoughts I wanted to share! Over recent months, discussion of the mental health crisis has become increasingly visible in the media. Mental ill health is the largest single-source of burden of disease in the… Read More “Go for a walk”

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Looking back at burnout and breakdown: final thoughts on my experience

Today, 10th October 2019, is World Mental Health Day. I thought I’d write a bit more in depth about my experience with burnout, breakdown and depression. It never stops being a journey, but it’s one I’d like to change focus from nowadays. This will be my final post talking about my specific experiences – it’s… Read More Looking back at burnout and breakdown: final thoughts on my experience

Blog, Mental Health, Self Discovery

A day in the life: burnout recovery

A day in the life – very slow living! A little history You may have read some of my posts talking about burnout and my thoughts about experiencing this. (They’re mostly grouped under the ‘mental health’ category if you want to search!) Burnout is a term used to describe the state of absolute exhaustion that’s… Read More A day in the life: burnout recovery

Blog, Mental Health

The Cave

Yesterday I woke up in The Cave. Walls closing in on my mind, crushing, eternal and dark. The sickening lurch towards the bottomless pit – that pull that’s so easy to give in to, drifting towards the horizon edge. My breath was panicked, short, shuddering. In the first five minutes of the day I felt… Read More The Cave

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I’m sorry I am me

This morning, I was up and about in the valley running an errand or two. Enjoying the warm sunshine and golden light, I was full of the joys of, well, autumn. I came up to a pedestrian crossing, seeing someone on the other side. And then I realised I knew them, and the last time… Read More I’m sorry I am me

Blog, Self Discovery

Arrows

  Arrows  Time moves forwards, as do we, sometimes looking back, but forever eternally moving on and on.  It is a healer, a cliché, an enemy, a friend. Time is a tool, an usurper, a disguise. In the moment, time can be hated and loved, derided or respected. The passage of time can break and… Read More Arrows

Blog, Mental Health, Self Discovery

Begin

It’s hard to begin afresh when you’ve been still for so long. Still physically, still mentally, still spiritually. A pond with no movement leads to brackish, brown water. Overgrown with weeds, surface reflecting a sad, tired, sheen. Awakening from a sleep, coming around from inactivity, closing the book on that chapter of silence. It’s hard… Read More Begin

Blog, Simplicity, Words

Ouch

Ouch  I pulled my glutes. At first it was kinda funny that I pulled my bum and all, but after making it worse by trying to carry on, I’m not really laughing any more. I tried to stand up last night, muscles ripping tears from my eyes in pain and frustration. Seizing up, shutting down.… Read More Ouch

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The Twilight Zone

  The Twilight Zone. This year has been a weird one. A bit of a twilight zone, of almost a direction, sometimes just almost some things, sometimes just faint hints of others.  Attempting to buy nothing, becoming flat broke anyway, and dealing with some lingering remnants from previous stressful times left me drained but triumphant,… Read More The Twilight Zone