Blog, Mental Health

Ups and Downs

Ups and downs.  Where do I start with the last few months? Where do any of us start? I’ve re-written this paragraph about 6 times now. It’s still hard to put this whole lockdown thing into words. The pandemic is still lurking around, at odds with the general feeling of ‘back to normality’ that is filtering through… Read More Ups and Downs

Blog, Mental Health

Lockdown Intertia

Lockdown Intertia. When the UK government told us we needed to stay at home back in March, I decided lockdown would be a great opportunity to start to regain my lost fitness. All that spare time stretched out in front of me, tantalising, waiting to be filled with good intentions and beneficial activities. In a… Read More Lockdown Intertia

Blog, Mental Health, Words

Together, apart

Together, apart.  After the memes. After the shouting, the knee-jerk buying, the panic, the refusal to accept. After the swarming of national parks. After the threats, the beating heart of community, the pleas on deaf ears. After the news, the updates, the endless, endless statistics. After it all. A slow acceptance of the trembling fear… Read More Together, apart

Blog, Mental Health, Self Discovery

Ten Years On

It’s the day before New Year’s eve and it’s the end of a decade. I feel like I’ve missed something, missed out on years of time flashing past me before I noticed. I feel as though the years between 26 and 36 have been a blur. So much has happened, yet here I still am.… Read More Ten Years On

Blog, Mental Health, Outdoors

“Go for a walk”

I know I said this post would be my last about my experiences with mental health – but I had some thoughts I wanted to share! Over recent months, discussion of the mental health crisis has become increasingly visible in the media. Mental ill health is the largest single-source of burden of disease in the… Read More “Go for a walk”

Blog, Mental Health

Looking back at burnout and breakdown: final thoughts on my experience

Today, 10th October 2019, is World Mental Health Day. I thought I’d write a bit more in depth about my experience with burnout, breakdown and depression. It never stops being a journey, but it’s one I’d like to change focus from nowadays. This will be my final post talking about my specific experiences – it’s… Read More Looking back at burnout and breakdown: final thoughts on my experience

Blog, Mental Health, Outdoors

Fadeaway

Summer is sliding away through my fingertips. As much as I try and grasp onto warmth, the temperature continues to fall. As much as I squeeze daylight tight in my fists, the nights are dimming quicker than I can measure. I raise my head and try and trick myself that I’m looking forward to crisp leaves… Read More Fadeaway

Blog, Mental Health, Self Discovery

A day in the life: burnout recovery

A day in the life – very slow living! A little history You may have read some of my posts talking about burnout and my thoughts about experiencing this. (They’re mostly grouped under the ‘mental health’ category if you want to search!) Burnout is a term used to describe the state of absolute exhaustion that’s… Read More A day in the life: burnout recovery

Blog, Mental Health, Self Discovery, Words

Scream

One from a bit back – the endless frustration of cfs… I don’t know who I am and I just want to scream. I want to scream at stillness, shatter through this grey existence like breaking walls of glass into a million glinting shards. I search and wail and am lost in the years of… Read More Scream

Blog, Mental Health, Self Discovery

Movement and fear

Next week, I’m starting a Pilates class at my physio. Spending a few years sat down doesn’t do much for your posture, and apparently, hardly any of my core muscles are working any more, with my neck/shoulders and lumbar region working double hard to keep me upright, rather than the muscles that actually should be… Read More Movement and fear