Blog, Mental Health, Outdoors, Self

One foot in front of the other

It’s Tuesday. I’ve caffeinated my way through my piano lesson and am now munching my way through a pile of vegetable sticks and houmous. Somehow this has randomly become my favourite lunch. I feel like after the yuletide period my body was crying out for vegetables, vitamins, anything green… so I’m well into the crunchy… Read More One foot in front of the other

Blog, Mental Health

The Cave

Yesterday I woke up in The Cave. Walls closing in on my mind, crushing, eternal and dark. The sickening lurch towards the bottomless pit – that pull that’s so easy to give in to, drifting towards the horizon edge. My breath was panicked, short, shuddering. In the first five minutes of the day I felt… Read More The Cave

Blog, Mental Health, Self

Taking antidepressants

“Come on, now I hear you’re feeling down Well I can ease your pain And get you on your feet again” -Pink Floyd, Comfortably Numb I’m tethered to my mac by the headphone cable, eyes closed, floating on the familiar cushion of music. I feel a sort of knot, rising in my throat- a physical… Read More Taking antidepressants

Blog, Mental Health, Outdoors

Gardening and depression

I noticed on Twitter the other day that this week is #GardensAndHealthWeek, promoted by the National Gardens Scheme. It struck a chord with me – pottering about our garden has brought me a sense of peace and calm whilst I started to navigate through severe depression and anxiety this year. I haven’t talked too much… Read More Gardening and depression

Blog, Words

Begin

It’s hard to begin afresh when you’ve been still for so long. Still physically, still mentally, still spiritually. A pond with no movement leads to brackish, brown water. Overgrown with weeds, surface reflecting a sad, tired, sheen. Awakening from a sleep, coming around from inactivity, closing the book on that chapter of silence. It’s hard… Read More Begin