Blog, Mental Health, Self

Momentum

I managed a little walk today. And yesterday, and the day before. I’ve been thinking about making a change for a while. Last year was a shocker. The previous ones weren’t so great either. And a little walk, each day, sounds just lovely. Beginning to move stiff joints. Clearing out the cobwebs from my brain,… Read More Momentum

Blog, Mental Health, Self, Words

I like the wrinkles round my eyes

I like the wrinkles round my eyes that crease up when I smile I like my crazy curly hair (although it’s taken a while) I like picking a tune out on old keys or strings or tin or wood I’m finally realising that it’s ok to say I’m good I like my tiny little ears… Read More I like the wrinkles round my eyes

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Claws, clutter, and change

The last year or so has been a journey, to put it mildly. Now I’m feeling quite a lot better, and I’m ready to step into this next phase of life. I’m quite looking forward to it. I think I’ve learnt a lot. A road I never expected but really, I feel like a better… Read More Claws, clutter, and change

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I have CFS/ME – coping with chronic illness

I used to run in the wind, splashing through muddy streams, feeling my lungs bite as I grabbed breath after breath. I used to box, and lift weights, and enjoy the burn across my shoulders as I pushed the limits of my muscles. And yes, I even used to be a personal trainer. Keeping fit… Read More I have CFS/ME – coping with chronic illness

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A little list of little things

Little things that make me happy when I’m feeling a bit wobbly: -Guinea Pigs -A book to lose myself in -Making Spotify playlists of all the music I loved when I was growing up -Doing my makeup and playing with crazy colours -Playing with the cat -A huge mug of tea -Playing piano (or another… Read More A little list of little things

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Taking antidepressants

“Come on, now I hear you’re feeling down Well I can ease your pain And get you on your feet again” -Pink Floyd, Comfortably Numb I’m tethered to my mac by the headphone cable, eyes closed, floating on the familiar cushion of music. I feel a sort of knot, rising in my throat- a physical… Read More Taking antidepressants

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Spending to feel better

It’s just about cold enough for porridge today. Even though I’ve pulled on a t-shirt this morning, autumn is pricking at my bare arms and the wind brings that unmistakable scent, the one where summer starts to sigh and draw languidly to a close. The pan lid tickers away, bubbles escaping from inside and the… Read More Spending to feel better

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Chapters

A large, ‘new-from-freecycle’ desk stretches in front of me. Incessant cheeping from a baby goldfinch just outside the window makes me smile. That little dude sure is hungry. I peek out, watching the parent bird resolutely ignoring the shrill demands, trying instead to eat their fill of niger seed before bestowing any more attention on… Read More Chapters

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Thirds, acceptance and truth

Birds swirl high on thermals above, sky-free, wind-soaring. I watch and relax my eyes, following one, then another, and drifting in my thoughts as those carefree wings circle on feathers lighter than air. I’m drawn back to a theme that’s been running at the back of my mind on a loop for a while. The… Read More Thirds, acceptance and truth

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Growing

Last September, I went back to university. I applied and was a little stunned when I was accepted onto the course. And, true to form, I spent the intermediate months working myself into a frantic ball of worry. By the time term came around, I was adamant I wasn’t going. But go, I did. I… Read More Growing