Blog, Mental Health

Looking back at burnout and breakdown: final thoughts on my experience

Today, 10th October 2019, is World Mental Health Day. I thought I’d write a bit more in depth about my experience with burnout, breakdown and depression. It never stops being a journey, but it’s one I’d like to change focus from nowadays. This will be my final post talking about my specific experiences – it’s… Read More Looking back at burnout and breakdown: final thoughts on my experience

Blog, Mental Health, Outdoors

Fadeaway

Summer is sliding away through my fingertips. As much as I try and grasp onto warmth, the temperature continues to fall. As much as I squeeze daylight tight in my fists,┬áthe nights are dimming quicker than I can measure. I raise my head and try and trick myself that I’m looking forward to crisp leaves… Read More Fadeaway

Blog, Mental Health, Self

A day in the life: burnout recovery

A day in the life – very slow living! A little history You may have read some of my posts talking about burnout and my thoughts about experiencing this. (They’re mostly grouped under the ‘mental health’ category if you want to search!) Burnout is a term used to describe the state of absolute exhaustion that’s… Read More A day in the life: burnout recovery

Blog, Mental Health, Self

Lightning

Did you ever get a lightning bolt realisation from reading something small and simple? A little innocuous sentence, but suddenly, a situation becomes clear, all at once? It happened to me this week. Reading the latest Permaculture magazine, Simon Lacey’s article on horticultural therapy really interested me, especially the incorporation of Permaculture principles into therapeutic… Read More Lightning

Blog, Mental Health, Self, Words

Scream

One from a bit back – the endless frustration of cfs… I don’t know who I am and I just want to scream. I want to scream at stillness, shatter through this grey existence like breaking walls of glass into a million glinting shards. I search and wail and am lost in the years of… Read More Scream

Blog, Mental Health, Self

Movement and fear

Next week, I’m starting a Pilates class at my physio. Spending a few years sat down doesn’t do much for your posture, and apparently, hardly any of my core muscles are working any more, with my neck/shoulders and lumbar region working double hard to keep me upright, rather than the muscles that actually should be… Read More Movement and fear

Blog, Mental Health

Limits: The invisible barrier and making sense

In a move that is nothing new for me, I’ve been thinking a lot recently. Quelle surprise, I know. But here’s the thing. We all know about imposter syndrome, I think – where we feel inadequately qualified for a role, telling ourselves we can’t do it, that others are way better for the job or… Read More Limits: The invisible barrier and making sense

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I am for

I’d like to say thank you for the thoughtful, heartfelt comments on Caring Enough. To hear that other people feel like this as well helped enormously. I needed to hear the things that people enjoy doing, to see that despite this feeling, it’s possible to begin to get involved in life once more. And, of… Read More I am for

Blog, Mental Health, Self

Caring Enough

This is a weird thing to try and write about. I think I’ve deleted this sentence about 8 times, trying to put into words this odd feeling that’s niggling at me recently. It’s getting to that time in my ‘time off real work’ where I’m starting to get itchy feet. I feel, if not that… Read More Caring Enough

Blog, Mental Health, Outdoors, Self

One foot in front of the other

It’s Tuesday. I’ve caffeinated my way through my piano lesson and am now munching my way through a pile of vegetable sticks and houmous. Somehow this has randomly become my favourite lunch. I feel like after the yuletide period my body was crying out for vegetables, vitamins, anything green… so I’m well into the crunchy… Read More One foot in front of the other