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Ten Years On

It’s the day before New Year’s eve and it’s the end of a decade. I feel like I’ve missed something, missed out on years of time flashing past me before I noticed. I feel as though the years between 26 and 36 have been a blur. So much has happened, yet here I still am.

The 1-photo-from-each-year posts are doing the rounds on social media, but for once I don’t feel the need to join in. So many important moments, so many memories. This decade has been a ride, for sure.

Back in 2009 I was working myself to the bone in retail. Ten years on, at the end of 2019, I’ve got married, bought a house, left ‘a few’ jobs and now work for myself, been fat and thin and fat again and survived depression. My hair has been blonde, brown and is now mostly settled back to ginger (currently hot pink and blue). I got cfs/me, went to lots of therapy, lost myself, found myself, got a master’s degree, and got accepted onto a PhD. Also, sometime back in 2011 I started a minimalism blog, which is still here 8 years later!

10 years ago, I didn’t know myself. I was caught up in a world that was changing me into someone I wasn’t – but I couldn’t see it until it was too late. There have been highs and lows, flatness and grey. Colour has faded and returned, like the slow ebb and breath of breaking waves. A young woman has settled, has learnt, has accepted. Now she is older, approaching middle age in the decade to come, more at peace, more in tune.

I leave the fight behind. I leave the struggle, the constant doubt, the comparison. I wouldn’t want to relive this decade but I am glad for it, for the things it has taught me, the people it has brought me, the person I now am.

I look into the next ten years with curiosity, with self-belief, with connection and with peace. Peace upon the last ten years. Peace upon the next.

 

 

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6 thoughts on “Ten Years On

  1. I am so with you on not wanting to relive this decade, but God, I have learned a whole lot myself in this past ten yrs. I’m so much stronger now than I was back then. Left my marriage, met lots of new people, moved across the country (twice), now working for myself, making less than a third of what I used to make. Thank you for this post. You’ve given me a lot to think about! I’m so glad you are still blogging by the way. Every time I see a post, I hear it being said aloud with your Scottish accent. It’s very calming!

    1. It’s amazing what can happen in 10 years Terri! So much can change, some of which we’d never even have thought of. Sounds like you had some pretty big changes too. Glad you found your strength through the years.
      And thank you!! For reading and commenting over the years. It amazes me that we can connect over all this distance! 🙂
      (Also there are tentative plans for some more reading-aloud-type stuff next year!)
      Sal x

  2. It’s been a privilege to follow so much of your journey over the last decade! I remember we both hit the ‘what’s next’ stage of minimalism around the same time, and since moving onto that ‘what do I fill my life with now’, it’s been quite a ride! and life certainly had it’s own plans for what to fill it with! Psycho, harassing neighbours that necessitated a house move, old age and death in the family, chronic illness (fibro), a kid with anorexia. Certainly learning experiences and one’s I’m pleased to have not had an exploding house during! But there’s also been travel around NZ at every chance we can get, new hobbies (sewing!), pets (2x dogs! the best things ever!) playing guitar and bass at our little (mostly progressive and affirming) church, learning Suzuki flute teaching to improve my decades-old pedagogy, discovering an obsession with renovating and painting walls, leaving early childhood and primary school behind and embracing teenagers, and softening my minimalist views around fashion. If your teenager loves fashion and only buys things she really loves and wears often, but it’s more than you would usually buy for yourself (chronic fashion underbuyer here!) it’s not a bad thing and shopping with her is a joy! All the best for the next decade Sal!

  3. It’s been amazing connecting with you Clare, I’ve loved following your journey too over the years. I love that the internet connects us over all those miles!

    Yes! The ‘what’s next’ of minimalism! That’s a great way of putting it. What do we fill all of the space with?

    Ups and downs and ups again and that constant of chronic illness – I feel you! I’m so glad you’ve found joy in your days. And I agree with the ‘softening’ of minimalist views – I think my softening might just be book related 😉

    Here’s to continuing joy in the next decade!
    Sal x

  4. So happy and proud for you. So many setbacks faced and so much healing and even wonderful achieving. I’m often telling my kids that mid-20s to mid-30s are the adult version of the adolescent years. An often challenging, often painful and turbulent time – though worthwhile for the personal growth and for where it lands you; as you approach your 40s (which has all the fun, creativity and excitement of early adulthood with the addition of not caring what others think of you because who needs that albatross around one’s neck!). Have an amazing year and see you soon 🙂

  5. It means a lot Lou! I think you’re right – mid 20’s to 30’s has been a rollercoaster! And it’s spat me out the other end a happier person thankfully 😉
    Bring on 40’s and not caring what people think – I’m looking forward to that…! A wonderful year to you too, and yes! See you soon! 🙂
    X

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