So, this last month has been a total, epic write off. I bought things, I bought many things, I bought things I didn’t even need. What happened? I’ve no idea, but here I am on the other side of my spending splurge, a little shaken, a little confused, but with 8 weeks left and a renewed determination to make the most of them.
So, in the interests of confession, I bought:
Charity Shop Stuff
-4 cheap corkboards
-1 pair of walking boots
-2 second hand board games
Oh my goodness.
So, I can kind of explain away the jumpers as I had no jumpers. Also I’ve put on quite a bit of weight and had no skirts that fit, and the soles had fallen off my other walking boots so I spent £2.99 on an absolute bargain of a used pair, with soles.
The corkboards me and my husband painted and are currently up in the office, filled with plans and post-its. The scarf was lovely. The board games were 2 for 99p.
Candles and cushions? I can’t even try and reason. The cushions had old map print on and the candles smelled good…. er…..
So, I could look at this year and say oh my goodness, I failed. I’m a massive failure. Oh woe is me, and all that jazz. But, instead, I chose to look at what I’d achieved this year instead. Close to 10 months of buying nothing apart from a car (ok, ok), 2 second hand chairs, and a dress for my brother’s wedding. That’s no bad going.
I feel a little ashamed, of course. I can’t even think of one thing that set me off on the spending splurge. No cravings, just a mechanical reaction to nice cushions…. But now I’m over it, I feel like I’ve got it out of my system somehow, and I’ve cleared out rather a few items in place of the new/second hand stuff. And I’m looking forward, not wallowing in guilt as I so easily could do.
This year has turned into much more of a journey and experiment than I imagined back in January. I am a different person right now, and I think a much more positive one. Things caught up with me, but I’m still heading forward, dreaming big, and I’m so glad that removing consumerism for a large part of the year has helped me have the space to focus on healing, building, and laying the ground work for the next few years of One Empty Shelf.
So, instead of feeling bad about buying some things, I’m accepting it as part of the journey. I’ll look at why and what, and learn and embrace it. Next year I’m excited about the ideas I have floating around, such as finally jumping in to #project333, only buying from charity shops, travelling a lot more in Art, and expanding One Empty Shelf…
As #buynothing2015 is drawing to a close, I’m thinking about my major learnings from the year and I’d love to hear yours, if you’ve joined in for a month, a week, or even for the whole adventure…